"Do you think that we should say it so soon?
I love you
Do you think that we are rushing just a little?
Should it feel this good?
I've fallen too fast
And I know there's a chance
That I'll come crashing down and just as soon hit the ground
That I rose from
But right now I'm singing...
I'm loving the way that you make me feel
don't go away cause I've fallen for real
I don't care if it's only been a month
Or a day, or a year
I know exactly what I feel
So why am I so scared?
Cause I've fallen too fast
And I know there's a chance
That I'll come crashing down and just as soon hit the ground
That I rose from
I love the way that you make me feel
don't go away cause I've fallen for real
I find it so enlightening
And all together frightening
That one day, just as soon as it came it could fade
But right now I'm singing
I'm loving the way that you make me feel
don't go away cause I've fallen for real
Baby seeing your face is the best part of my day
And I wouldn't change this for anything"
Make me Feel - Renee Cassar
I know i took a long break. I know i lost that drive i had, But now it's back. I found that drive back. Sometimes you can feel so tired doing something you love then you ask yourself, why are you tiring yourself like that. But the reason is simple. It's because of that passion. It's because of the ambition that you had. Time to get back to the track.
And, i learnt something from bestie a few days back. I don't want to keep saying it because it wouldn't mean anything anymore. So i'll save it for some other time. =) And so long ago, i didn't have a care about anybody. But i care about you now. Any day when you feel a little low, if you come to me, i'll make it right. If i can't make it right, i'll be here together with you.
- The song reminded me of you.
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aveleirahazel- November 26th, 2009
- Trust
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- aveleirahazel
- November 20th, 2009
The 2000 Olympic gold medalist, Simon Fairweather, rebuilt his shot from the ground up at the advice of his coach only a year and a half before the Olympic Games. Such daring can only happen when there is absolute trust in that relationship. - By Claudia Stevenson and Steve Ruis
With this, i'm gonna trust her with all my heart. I'm gonna start from scratch again. That determined girl is back.
- I know you're not gonna read this but i still need to write this.
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- aveleirahazel
- November 15th, 2009
sad
I don't know you. I read what you wrote and i can't stop crying now. I want to talk to bestie now but i don't know if i want to bother her again because i told her so much about you. So much about how i felt about you. And i really don't know how i feel about you. But when i finally sorted out how i feel, i saw what you wrote and the world came crashing down. I had a great day today you know. But now, all i need to do is stop crying. BECAUSE YOU IDIOT. I thought you knew me but apparently you didn't. You guessed wrong. I was right here waiting for you to reach out to me but when you decided to give up halfway, i guess i'll start to move on. Because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought.
- Tweet Tweet.
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- aveleirahazel
- November 10th, 2009
Well, i'm moving on to twitter people. So bye you lovely people following this. Because i'm so lazy to blog out in paragraphs these days and twitter's so much easier. So here you go: http://twitter.com/aveleirahazel
- Tired. Exhausted.
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- aveleirahazel
- November 8th, 2009
- drained
-I said something bad/mean and they reminded me how much you meant to me. But still, i don't know how i feel either. I'm afraid.
-I really need to train harder. I'm thinking of training more days, perharps at some outside club. No, i'm not gonna shoot for other clubs. Still gonna shoot for SP but doubling up on training only. We'll see about this. I'm not decided yet.
-I miss besties. ALOT. Haven't been able to talk to them lately. And i have so much to tell you, nat. I want to cry my heart out, i want to talk to you about everything. You were always there to help me pick up the pieces.
There's alot of things going on but i'm really tired and exhausted now.
- (no subject)
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- aveleirahazel
- November 1st, 2009
- exhausted
-I'm cooping up all this feelings and it's slowly turning into resentment.
-A battle lost, a wake up call.
Maybe i should get twitter. I'm so lazy to write out in paragraphs lately.
"When she says she's alright, she really isn't. But she has to be strong. She has to put on that front."
- Well, the last time was 16th sept.
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- aveleirahazel
- October 30th, 2009
tired
Every time i try to walk towards you, you back away. And it hurts me a lot. It hurts me to see you think i don't care. Because i do. I trust you with all my heart and i want to know what you think. And i'm not regretting my choice. It really took me alot to tell you how i felt. I cried thinking of how to break it to you. It felt really good after that to speak my mind, to tell you how i felt. Because bestie was right. I shouldn't be cooping up all these feelings, hate you for it. I should work things out with you. Because if i regretted my choice, i wouldn't have even bothered telling you how i felt. I wouldn't try catching up with you. You're still a little clammed up but then again, i try not to over think, over read into your actions. Trusting that you really do see things my way.
Well, training has been as per normal. I'm not making any progress, nor am i going backwards. Yeah. I'm stuck. I need to push myself more. Sometimes i really forget about all the ambitions i had. I need constant reminder i think.
And it's really good to have "aunties" to keep me in check sometimes. As much as it gets irritating at times. You'll be amazed by how guys can be so naggy.
Again, i'm in the nervous mode already. It's the same old vicious cycle everytime before compys. And taufiq and schaz were kinda right. I need to learn how to control my nervousness. Because everytime i hear compy, regardless of wheather it's just fun IKO with friends, or official compy, it breaks me. So i'm learning how to control that.
*recites in head* "I WILL GIVE MY BEST AT ZHENGHUA. I WILL PLAY TO WIN. EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT AND IT'S JUST GONNA BE LIKE ANY OTHER TRAINING"
Oh yeah, i'm enjoying my gems. It's really fun. Feels like the good old days when i was in sec 2, doing lit production. =) Feels good to take with someone this sem. =)
And bestie S, i miss you with all my heart. All that misunderstanding, i think it's been too long since we last met, since i last talk to you. I feel the distance.But you're still important to me so we'll work this out soon. Hopefully.
Okay. Tata. I really have no will to update this any further. Wish me luck readers! I need it for the coming 2 weekends. =)
"She can't cry, she can't show any signs of weakness. She longs to be your typical girl but it'm not possible anymore. She has to hide all her emotions and the only one that she can show is happiness. That smile she always has to plaster on her face. That laugh she needs to have even when she's upset. She's getting a little tired. But she knows that her best friends would be there. The only shelter she has."
- I'm a hypocrite so what? Because everyone's one in one way or another.
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- aveleirahazel
- September 16th, 2009
angry
Well, as usual, i'm bored that's why i'm here blogging. Just some random thoughts. Don't know if this is gonna go emo by the end of this entry but oh well, here goes.
1. I had some great time with friends recently and well, they are really cool people and fun. I had a great day, thanks for the great time. I'm not gonna blog out the whole grandmother story because it's never fun just listening to other people having fun. Some people missed out but i hope they'd come next time! =)
2. And, ahahaha! I feel a slight tinge of guilt for being so mean. But sympathy's not gonna bring me far. So yeah. Guilty but that's just pretty much the end of it.
3. Training hasn't been good. My paranoia is coming back. I lost my little confidence that i had but i'll regain back on thurs. I promise. I should really learn to shoot with people i hate. I always let them get to me. ARGH. But on a better note, thanks to those who helped me along the way. I really appreciate every single bit of their help. And i want to be good. So i'm trying to absorb all i can. I am trying but i might be a little slow. I do remember all that people have told me, what's wrong with the way i'm shooting. I really do. I'll be great someday! =) And i'm training harder this hols. I hope i'll get better by the end of this hols. =)
4. I really miss besties and i really want to go out with them. But they all are busy with prelims and A's now so it's kinda hard to go out. Now that their hols are over too. Oh well.
5. Looking forward to movie outing this thurs/friday.
6. I kinda miss DASE 03 now that half of them are in china. They look like they're having great fun. But yet, i don't feel any slight tinge of regret. Because i know i really don't want to miss training now. I was contemplating to sign up but glad i didn't.
7. I want to go for coming competiton but i don't really think i can. I hope they have 30m, 50m instead of fita 900! *cross fingers* My arrow can't reach 60m. Maybe it can. I tried 70m but it really couldn't reach no matter how far i pushed my sight back.
8. Right now, i'm fuming because i remembered my shorts were black when i put it to wash yesterday. Now it has orange spots on it. Yeah, and it wasn't cheap pasar malam shorts.
Okay. End of post. Bye lovely people reading this. I lost all my mood to blog.
- It's been a month.
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- aveleirahazel
- September 2nd, 2009
complacent
Whoa. 31st july. Ahahaha! It's been so long since i last updated. Actually, i'm giving up on this journal already. The ocassional entries are probably because i'm bored/taking a break or whatever. I don't have the commitment to really update this journal every week or every few days. I bet there's no one reading this anymore but it's okay. This is just random thoughts.
Okay. MAJOR NEWS. So, my stuff are finally here. BIG SHOCKER HUH?! Ahahaha! Yeah. I waited until i was like numb then BOOM, when it comes, it shocks you. Anyways, yeah. Shock. Now, that shock has become uncertainty. Because i'm scared. I've heard of so many people having rough starts, i've seen people having to "start again" when they up. I'm scared. I'm scared of starting all over again. Hopefully not. I hope it'll all be the same. And now, i used to be so excited about changing to metal bow. But now, it's becomes "Can i handle it?". It hit me to a point i decided to listen to what people try to tell me. I actually order a 36# instead of 38#. And now as i'm typing this, 36# seems a little too much and i'm cotemplating 34#. Because right now, 32# is still kinda taxing to me. And it's been only like less then 3 months since i switch to 32#. I hate to have to start on a blank board again, shooting short distance to build up stamina, build up form, get use to poundage. The feeling just sucks having to start all over again. Then you see all those people shooting well, you want to be like them too! But maybe it's a good thing it came just right before the holidays. Because all that uncertainty, all that doubts about myself, right now, all i can do is to use this precious holidays to build everything up. Train more so i can get use to all that add-ons.
And yeah, i'm afraid of tuning too. I've read about it, know a little here and there, but i don't know how to start. How to even begin. Let's hope some kind soul is gonna help me! :)
So in short, my resolutions for this holidays is to: Train more to get use of all that add-ons, to get use to that change. If it means starting from scratch again, then i'll do it. I'll do whatever it takes to be good. One step at a time. I'm gonna stop being so stressed and take one step at a time. Promise. Okay. Maybe not. I TRY AH. If not some people reading this will use it to extort lunch from me again.
she's crying so bad. she told herself she'd moved on. but deep down inside, there's still part of her there's still clinging on to all that hope. that hope that maybe he'd turn back a look at her. she's working so hard. but she don't know it's for herself, or if it's just for her to stand out from the rest so he'd look at her.
- This is the end. Finally.
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- aveleirahazel
- July 31st, 2009
I'm up so early when i'm not even going to school. And when i need to go to school, i can't wake up. Anyways, i fell asleep yesterday when i'm supposed to conference with cindy and people who are going for Harry Potter. Yeah. I'm like one of the last on earth to watch. Was supposed to watch with a couple of friends but ended up missing because i was too tired after training and sweaty.
I MISS NAT.
I MISS OTH.
I MISS GRA.
I MISS SHAH.
I MISS SARAH.
I MISS YINGSHI.
Because right now, i have so much to tell them about. I know nat and oth are worried about me. But i'm alright now. Like finally. Oth was right. Just when i thought i couldn't pick myself up again, time heals alot of things. And when you pretend about something long enough, it won't be a pretense anymore. It will finally get to you and become real.
And score taking is tomorrow. I'm getting nervous. I don't know why. It's JUST score taking.
I'm not gonna care about score for now.
I'm just gonna think less about my shots.
I'm gonna have ALOT more confidence in my shots.
I'm gonna stop being so stress when i shoot.
Yeah. I keep getting different people telling me the same things but somehow, it doesn't get into my head. Yeah. I'm a paranoia like alot of people thinks so. I'm gonna change that. Gonna stop being so paranoid. =)
And i need to start work on my multisim now. Circuit Analysis is such a bitch. ARGH. And my nightmare is back. I hate using softwares to do work. Yeah. Call me stone age.
Pretend princess actually found out her feelings for him. From herself. No more guessing. Her instincts were right after all. She thought she'd cry. But she didn't. Well, it's finally the end now. All that misery. She's finally getting closure.
- I cried reading what you wrote. I cried finding out someone's past.
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- aveleirahazel
- July 26th, 2009
- drained
Okay. Went for camp but i had to go back early because i really need to vomit out something for CA. If not later the lecturer scold and i should be gettting work done since i'm doing PBIL alone. ARGH! I hate CA and i would have stayed for camp if i could! ARGH!
Yeah. Back to camp, nothing much happened la. It was pretty much like last camp and i didn't have as much fun. It was really like staying back in school to train. Anyways, it was more for the year 1s. So, i stayed up at 2am in the morning to fletch my arrows and guess what? BEFORE i even shoot, the fletches started coming off. And yeah, the rest also pretty much didn't survive. I ended up with 3 arrows that only had one fletch left and 4 arrows with 2 fletches left. None had all 3 fletches intact. How sad. Which is why, i shot 30m instead of 50m even though we ended up not taking scores. THANKS TAUFIQ. :) Ahahaha! Anyways, on a brighter note, i found my arrow that i lost weeks ago! Thanks to guo long. Ahahaha! He was actually helping rachel to find her lost arrow but ended up finding all the other lost long time ago but not hers. I hope rachel finds hers soon too. :)
Anyways, i'm probably gonna stop working on my form(as in changing) for now, for awhile. Right now, i just need more confidence in my shots.
- This journal is more of a training log now.
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- aveleirahazel
- July 22nd, 2009
- sad
I'm really sad now. Sad because i can't get groupings for 50m. No doubt it's my first time shooting 50m, but there's no excuse. It just means i have a bad form. And, someone said something that hit me. I'm moving backwards. I'm deproving. And it's really sad. I am no longer like before. I can no longer change like before. It was only a few months ago when i had good form. But now, nothing seems right anymore. And i'm under drawing my bow by so much. 32 lbs limbs but i'm only drawing 28. And i'm still not improving after so long. :(
But yet, i'm still gonna continue shooting 50m. Because there's no turning back. I don't want to be stuck in my comfort zone. I don't want to be forever shooting 30m. I want to progress. I want to be able to shoot full fita someday.
- I'm supposed to be studying my lab test.
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- aveleirahazel
- July 12th, 2009
- sad
I wanted to train today until i realised i had a lab test tomorrow and i desperately need to score in order not to forward my module because i failed my MST for CA. But anyways, i spent alot of time playing with alfie instead.
Things to be done next training:
-no moving head when anchoring. Yes. I know. I'm not trying to follow to ukraine archers. I was just trying to touch my nose with the string when it's already touching.
-shoulder alignment.
-relaxing of fingers of bow arm and not tense up as i draw.
-open up the my stupid fingers when releasing.
-the stupid jerky arm when i anchor.
I'm going back to basics, spending time with alfie, watching alot of my old good form vid so hopefully it can get in my head when i actually shoot.
Sighs. Pesta's coming and i'm not sure if i wanna go. SP-Arkle's not gonna be complete without aik cheng. And i don't know if shi min or april's gonna fill up aik cheng. But that's not the point. I promised myself SAFRA was gonna be my last novice but what happened? I am so bloody tempted to go for novice for pesta. But then again, it's kinda embarassing to compete against those who just started. Yes. It's my ego. There are still possibilites i might lose. It's not a sure-win kinda thing okay?! But then again, how the hell am i gonna go for intermediate when i can get ANY arrows onto the board at 50m? Yes, i lost the courage after i zipped so many arrows, lost 1. Yes, i need to get that courage back if i want to shoot full fita but gimme some time.
So right now, it's either novice or don't go at all.
Anyways, SAFRA, won but really, it wasn't a glorious win. 11 people only. And out of the 11, At least half of the girls had ridiculous form. As in, it looked like they have never ever shot before and the compy was the first time they shot. I'm not being all proud and mighty here but it was really that bad. Our year 1s have WAY WAY WAY WAY better form then that i tell you. There were only 2 teams for standard women and it's either you get the sliver or gold. Can't believe they gave out both though. Thought it'd be just the gold. Oh well.
I NEED TO GET MY FORM RIGHT SOON. I WANT TO GET MY FORM RIGHT WITHIN 2 WEEKS. If i can get it right within 2 weeks the last time, then i can get it right within the same time now. It's so sad to look at my form vid just few months back during training camp and right now my form is so far from it. And i'm not gonna blame it on the 6lbs jump because i saw the NUS indoor vid that shawn took and i have the exact same problem that rachel pointed out about the stupid jerky arm. And my drawlength miraculously shorten within months too. How is it i can click without any problems back then with my clicker so far back and now i have to push my clicker so front.
Some of you might say i'm being too paranoid about my form and i think too much but seriously, i'm gonna up to recurve already then got so many problems! How not to worry you tell me?! :'( :'( :'(
Okay. End of bitching session. Need to get back to work already. I must do good this lab test!
- Whoa. It's dead.
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- aveleirahazel
- June 15th, 2009
- excited
Hello loyal readers i'm back! Nevermind if no one's reading anymore. Because i just wanna say some things in my heart i can bring myself to say in person. Maybe later.
Okay. School's been fine lately and nothing interesting happened. At least not enough to make a deep impression for me to remember till now. Oh i suddenly remember! Thanks johnny for blogging about me! So here you go, a small part about you too! I still like bullying you in class. MUAHAHAHA! :)
Well SP Open was bad i guess. But competition was really the last thing on my mind. And i screwed big time so i'm really sorry.
FO Camp has been okay. At least some people are appreciative. There were some idiots no doubt. I didn't have as much fun as i had in year 1 but it was still a great experience! I've been to less than 5 camps so it was really difficult for me to come up with things much less lead. So ya. I wanted to be a gl but didn't have a chance too. Oh well.
NUS Indoor has been good. At least we made it that far. Just wanna say i love working with SP-Arkle. They are the best team mates i can get. It feels good to train together, work hard together, go competition together. It really does. And special thanks to rachel because i had to deal with some negativity and she helped me alot. She helped me picked myself together. And supported me during compy. Thanks rachel! :D:D:D Oh anyways, i've slightly changed my mind about kids. The PPCC girls are really cool. :) But then again, they aren't really that kiddy. I'm surprised by their level of maturity. No i'm surprised by how matured archery kids are. Like really.
I really regret telling someone some things. Sometimes, i should be more guraded about my emotions, not let anyone see, or tell what i think. I miss the me when i just started out poly. As much as i hate someone, i can still put on a big smile, and like talk to that person nicely. Now i just can't. Time to turn back into that person. Because sometimes, some people just can't be trusted. I get hurt so many times yet i still haven't learnt my lesson. Let's be less forgiving. Like the me i was back then.
And SAFRA. GO! GO! GO! Team SP-Arkle! And i'm really sorry shah. I won't be able to make it for your birthday. But i know you'd understand. I'm sure besties all would understand. Because you all know how important archery has became to me. It's like secondary to school now. I'm glad i'll be meeting you all in a few hours time. Because i got so much to tell you all you know. We've got so much to catch up! And i miss ya all like crazy!
Okay. I shall stop now. I know it's skimpy but i'm getting more and more lazy to blog. I don't know when's there's a next post so catch up with you all soon. Close friends would know how i'm doing. :):):)
- Not good.
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- aveleirahazel
- May 19th, 2009
- stressed
Been really busy. CCA showcase, Compy, Camp. I'm not gonna blog about it now because it's 9:00pm now and i need to get cracking on my EPI proposal. ARGH!
But i just need to say:
Bestie, i hope that we were right. Nat was right. I choose to believe you. Believe that the you is know back then i still there. I hope you don't make any serious mistakes. Because you should know that you have a whole group of friends behind you. I cried when she told me you are on the wrong way. Because i care. Because we care.
- Busy week ahead.
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- aveleirahazel
- April 26th, 2009
lazy
Okay. I'm procrastinating now so this shall be a short one. I'm supposed to do my tutorials, read up on circuit analysis and AMMP.
1) Tutorials on the first week! ARGH! I thought it was gonna be slack but i was wrong. I need to find the will to do my work. Last year slack too much.
2) I am absolutely not prepared to go for compy and i just spammed arrows yesterday for the last few ends for trials because it was too bloody hot and i just want to get it over and done with. GUILTY. Crap. No time to train already. So let's hope i find the will to spend at least 10 mins with alfie everyday now.
3) I think i really regret taking etiquette and professional image. It wasn't as intriguing as Understanding how a ship functions. How am i gonna survive half a year with it? My oh my!
4) I was severely infected with rabies yesterday. Symptoms include fake smiles, and entertaining awkward questions by relatives. But must be good girl these few weeks. I need money for my bow.
5) I finally settled on what to get for my bow already. So i'm getting:
- Athlete riser in red
- 34# athlete limbs
- element stabs if not soma(I hope coach has it. It's on altsevices!)
- W & W sight
- fast flight ready made string.
- soma damper and weights
Crap. I just remembered i haven't read up on arrows yet. Most probably navigators la. But still not settled. I need to measure my drawlength and i'm sure there nocks and pins sand lotsa things to note.
Okay. Hope i haven't miss anything. Lazy to type ot details but ya, roughly la. Okay. GTG. Bye love!
- To Nat and Oth, With Love.
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- aveleirahazel
- April 21st, 2009
- grateful
Thanks besties. Thanks for holding me together when i'm falling apart again. I hate letting people seeing my weak side so i'll try my best not to cry in front of anybody. Just like in secondary school. I'm not the cry baby. But only with you 2 can i cry my heart out, bitch about people getting on my nerves, yet don't judge me. Friends like you guys are really hard to come by and i really appreciate it. As much as you guys are having hard times and are busy, you spent time listening to me. I'm going through a dark period now and you guys know it, always there to support me. Give me advice to do what's right and not do something i'll regret. Wish me luck in pursuing a new direction. I love love you guys. :D :D
First day of school was okay. It was crazy. I'm feeling the pressure already. It's bad because vanessa knows why. Ahahaha! And it's good cause the lecturers aren't that boring like last year's and i got free notes for AMMP! YAYNESS! The privileges of being a GIRL! Okay. Not really la. I was lucky to sit at one of the front rows and near the side so the lecturer random give me. :D WHOOHOO! Let's hope i'll do well this year. I want to do well, by the end of 3 years, hopefully i can be a licensed aircraft engineer. I'm positive i won't be going down the pilot route. So ya. Hopefully i'll find the determination not to sleep in lectures anymore. Let's hope DASE 03 can continue to hog the front row seats to lecture. Because i really hate to sit at the back. NOSIY. And i hate mass lectures. Oh well. I need to start getting use to it.
Archery has been bad. REAL REAL REAL bad. I'm so stagnant now i lost my will to fight already. I need some motivation. I need to stop spamming arrows. Get rid of the let's faster finish the arrows and faster get it over and done with cause the weather is so hot attitude. I NEED TO STOP HAVING SUCH A NEGATIVE ATTITUDE IF I WANT TO GET TO THE TOP. ARGH. I need to find my will back. Sighs. I need to overcome the fear of hitting my hand. That's this big part of me that thinks about not hitting my hand when i shoot instead of concentrating on more important things. SIGHS. I'll be back.
I miss the old me. I miss the me that show the world how i feel and not be so hypocritical this days. Oh well. This is part of growing up i guess.
Time check: 12 54AM. Time to get to sleep. Tmr start at 8AM! And i love my new timetable. Cause i get to go home at 12 for 3 days a week. YAYNESS! Ahahaha! Bye lovely readers!
- I Lied.
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- aveleirahazel
- April 13th, 2009
- drained
Truth is, i'm not going back anymore. The decision made last time was a mistake. But i've learnt alot this time around. Even though i wasted alot of time, allowed myself to get hurt but it's only life. I love you but maybe it's become a habit. A habit that needs to be broken right now.
- Banana Boat Clogs My Pores.
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- aveleirahazel
- April 10th, 2009
- tired
Okay. So, OP concert in my honest opinion wasn't as fantastic as ever. I still prefer club soul and zirco. And, alot of my batch people wasn't back. And the one i was waiting for didn't go! :( Oh well. anyways, i thought i'd miss OP alot. But truth is, when i went for the concert, all i could think of was when it'd end, and when we can go. I didn't even want to mingle. I know alot of my friends miss OP alot because they contributed alot there. Me, on the other hand is more of an SP person. Because i never was the active person in school back then. I was like aiyah, whatever la. I only supported events because my friends were in it. But i never was the type to participate hence i don't feel as much attachment as they did. OP is history and i don't miss it. One world was just an excuse to hang out.
Training has been bad recently. I'm not doing well and i kinda lost all my motivation i had to do well. But i'm back now! I need to stop hitting my hand before i get my own equipment. I'm settled on riser, limbs and stabs already. Still deciding on my sight though. Shibuya is a tad too expensive la. But i want a red sight! I'm still looking out for the rest. Okay. Enough thinking about equipment when i'm still hitting my hand and i won't be getting until after MST 1. I need hols to get used to the new equipment.
I think i regret taking etiquette and professional image. I should have taken french first then hope i have a free monday morning next sem to take marine business. I'm gonna cry if i have a free monday morning next sem!
And, i'm sad. Sad that 2 besties are going through a rough patch and i can't help them much. And i'm sad they're sad. SIGHS. :(:(:(
Okay. I'm too tired to go on. It's 2;40am and i'm still not asleep.
Bye lovely readers!
SEE. I look so feminine here! I am NOT somewhat masculine like what that stupid facebook quiz said!
- FAIR SKIN!
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- aveleirahazel
- March 28th, 2009
bouncy
I'm currently VERY VERY OBESSESED with getting my fair skin back by friday, OP concert. Ahahaha! Must look good in my dress leh. I'm bloody insecure about my tan lines now. For real. Sighs. The sun has to be so unforgiving on me today. Just on the second day of my intensive whitening regime! I think i just grew darker! :( Sunblock is so useless. I think it just blocks out UV rays. Not your tan. :( Those were the days i had even skin tone. Before i started archery.
FAIR SKIN BY FRIDAY! Unrealistic expectations i know. But still, good to have some hope!
